Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014

IRONY.
My first post for December 2013 will be the last for December 2013. Also will be the last for the calendar year. Hardly have time to blog, so can't help it. Haha...

31st December 2013. About half an hour till new year!
Where have the days gone by? Just about mid-year I was about to enter Renaissance Hotel KL to begin (more like re-start) my six months on-job training, at the same time hoping that it will go by A.S.A.P! How soon! Couldn't wait to complete training, and here I am now, training over and done with and now currently taking my final examination to get my diploma cert. Time flies by very quickly when you aren't counting down the days to anything...

The year is about to come to an end. New year resolutions? FUCK THAT. No lists for me! I am not the type to make silly resolutions that I may end up not fulfilling. Why stress myself out with regrets when I end up not achieving anything on the metaphorical list?

Speaking of regrets...do I have any regrets when I look back at the year gone past? I would be lying if I said I had no regrets. My one deepest regret would be the unfortunate incident in Penang earlier this year. If given another chance I would definitely not do what I did. But what is the point of regretting? The most important thing is to learn your lesson and move on. Try not to repeat that same mistake again. No more looking back... Got to move on... But that aside, I would much rather view the positives from this year. Plenty of good things happened to me this year. Whether it is material things I have received from people or kind words spoken to me, they were all precious memories which will be with me for the longest time.

Next year will be a whole new challenge for me. Supposing I graduate, it will mean that I will begin working full-time. Not sure which hotel to join or which country to work in, but I'm sure God has His plans for me. I just have to do what I have to do and do my very best and let God decide what's best for me for 2014.

When 2014 rolls around, it would be just about ten years ago that I was preparing to enter a private school which now I look back would practically take up most of my high school years. Back then it was scary, as I was supposed to go to a government school for Form 1, yet I was joining a totally new and different school. Now when I look back, time really has gone by so quickly, and though it has only been ten years so many things have changed. Some for the better, some for the worst. But it's better not to look back. Best to move forward and embrace what life has in store for us.

May 2014 bring everyone luck and good health. May God bless all spiritually and financially for the upcoming year ahead. Here's wishing everyone good health and may 2014 be a prosperous year for all. HAPPY NEW YEAR!


WELCOME, 2014!

today i turn 22...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

yeah, the seventh day of November is here... i am officially 22 years young today. so far, only my mother has texted me to wish me. no one else...but then again, it's midnight... i don't care, frankly speaking. i used to be so worried when people "forgot" my birthday. nowadays i just take any wishes as they come. if you are a true friend who remembers and wishes, then go ahead. if you choose to do the opposite, who am i to get upset? your choice. i don't want something small like this to dominate my head every year...

meanwhile, i have to work the morning shift (7 a.m. - 3 p.m.) later. no choice. got to force myself to get up early and go to work. only one month left till internship is over...

i have no idea how to celebrate turning 22. tonight i may be going out to dinner with my uncle and the family. not sure what restaurant though. they have been there before, without me. totally looking forward to tonight!

22 years young now! gosh, one more step closer to death...

what the f**k!!!???

BAD DAY.

i was robbed of my phone today. happened at around 1-something in the afternoon. it happened in an internet cafe that i have frequented a lot and assumed nothing like this would happen. seems i was mistaken all along... i guess i shall never set foot in ANY internet cafe again... all i lost was my phone, nothing else. the robber was a (probably drunk) Indian asshole and he only demanded the phone from me, despite my wallet being obviously placed on top of the table. i was shaken after all that happened. i was rooted to my seat when it all happened. it was so quick... the fucking Indian asshole robber even shouted at me in cantonese somemore.  anyway i thank God that all he took was a phone that i could replace anytime and not my important documents... i also thank God that he didn't beat or hurt anyone else. such a harrowing experience. i had previously never encountered a robbery before, but i can safely say that in Malaysia now nowhere is ever safe...

*feeling confused now. should i have refused to give the phone to him, or did i make a right choice in just meekly handing it to him? on one hand i am glad he didn't hurt me and took only my phone, but on the other hand i am sad he took away my phone that contained almost all my important stuff...*

*i also want to wish that bloody Indian asshole and whoever his cohorts were, that karma will rear its ugly head at him and his gang. i hope to God that he will meet his ultimate doom. i hope that he will meet with a bad accident that kills him and he will suffer in hell for eternity. FUCKING INDIANS.*

here today, gone tonight...

goodbye, tough July and hello August! (please be kind to me. hehe...)


so it's the beginning of a brand new month... i have been working lately, as you can see with the lack of many blog posts recently. work has been kind to me. so far, so good... started on the 24th of June. the first two days were orientation days, but my hotel is nice enough to include those two days as work days, hence i will still be paid normal wages for those two days. incidentally, i received my first month's pay. got RM370. the normal allowance is RM300, but the extra RM70 is for the days i worked in June. all good.....

had to part with RM200 immediately as i owed my uncle that amount due to me taking out an early loan to buy my new Liverpool shirt for the upcoming Premier League season (yes, the shirt is important.). anyways, the remaining RM170 i used to buy a Philips MP3 player at Tesco in Paradigm Mall. the music player cost RM125. i haven't had an MP3 player for a few years now, so coupled with boring daily commutes to work without music i figured it was a worthwhile investment to get this MP3 player. it is simple to use and furthermore a new model. i initially wanted a Sony model, but the electrical goods staff claimed it was all sold out, and instead offered me this new model which was so new it wasn't even displayed yet! i tried it out, and was instantly amazed. the sound was so clear, so much better than my last MP3 player i had, which was a Creative brand one way back in 2004..... Philips is really under-rated...

i feel sad that my allowance was almost spent in one day alone, but i guess i had no choice. i insisted on buying the Liverpool jersey, so i guess no matter how many loans you take out initially in the end you have to pay back. well, i have to work hard for another month before receiving my next paycheck.....

i am hoping that the rest of August will be kind to me...


*goodnight and goodbye (for now)...*

Climb 'Til Your Dream Comes True

Often your tasks will be many,
And more than you think you can do.
Often the road will be rugged
And the hills insurmountable, too.
But always remember,
The hills ahead
Are never as steep as they seem,
And with Faith in your heart
Start upward
And climb 'til you reach your dream.
For nothing in life that is worthy
Is ever too hard to achieve
If you have the courage to try it,
And you have the faith to believe.
For faith is a force that is greater
Than knowledge or power or skill,
And many defeats turn to triumph
If you trust in God's wisdom and will.
For faith is a mover of mountains,
There's nothing that God cannot do,
So, start out today with faith in your heart,
And climb 'til your dream comes true!

Sometimes it's just not meant to be

Sometimes it's just not meant to be... I suppose it's true... Maybe it is time to let go...

yeah...it's 2-something in the wee hours of the morning... I should be asleep (wanted to sleep early to start developing a healthy sleep pattern again) by now but I just don't really feel safe staying all alone in my uncle's house. Despite how annoying my cousins can be I admit that I (kinda) miss them. I guess I rather have annoying kids disturbing me than having too much silence but peace. I don't know. I have been rather nervous lately. Must be that darned day which is coming soon (next Tuesday, to be precise), which will be the C&G theory examination. I am not quite sure why I am nervous! Could it be due to the fact that I haven't even begun to study for the test, or it could be the fact that I will be seeing my batch mates for the first time since March (also not forgetting seeing them since they knew about the glass-throwing incident)? I don't quite know. Maybe I should just be positive and try not to think of the negatives...

Okay then. I shall get a bit of sleep. Not sure what to do later on in the morning, but I will find something to do...

Bye!

last day of May

TODAY'S THE LAST DAY OF MAY! *GOSH*...

Was scheduled to have the interview with Double Tree hotel this morning. Woke up early to get ready, then got a call from Cilantro Academy telling me that the interview had been cancelled due to the fact that the person who was supposed to interview me was not available... Oh well. Another time then. Was hoping that I could get the interview over and done with. But looks like I have to wait...

Fret not, for the day can't be wasted at home. My uncle and his family have attended a 4-day-3-night church camp at Port Dickson, and that means I have the whole house to myself. No one to invite over, though. Pathetic... Anyway, I decided to walk to Paradigm Mall to watch a movie. Guess what:

Yep, I watched not one, but TWO movies! First I watched Hangover Part 3. I didn't expect much from it; rather I just threw all logic out of the window and watched it purely for fun. It was great fun! Now, the second movie was rather special. I have waited for it with bated breath ever since I watched the trailer. Now You See Me was a much better movie than Hangover Part 3, and even though there were certain flaws in the plot and storyline I really enjoyed every moment of it. For those who have yet to watch it, quickly go watch it! It's worth your time and money!

I also dropped by Tesco to check out if there were any nice Hot Wheels cars to buy (Tesco's having a buy-2-free-1 offer now). I didn't get to find the cars I wanted, but these 3 will make do for now (since I don't have them yet). I bought a Ferrari 458 Spider, a 1968 Shelby GT500, and a BMW M3. Not bad (compared to the others on the racks)...

After all the fun was done in Paradigm Mall, I headed to a barber near my uncle's house to get a haircut. This is the result. It doesn't look particularly nice, but once it's gelled up, it'll look great...

Most importantly, today was the first time I took Bommie (my pair of Adidas NEO Clemente Mid) for shopping! She was really comfy (apart from the blisters I got on my right foot, due to my silly mistake of not wearing ankle socks). The pain was so unbearable that after watching Hangover Part 3 I immediately went to Brands Outlet to buy a box of  3-pack socks. Anyway I also needed new socks, so what the heck, just buy lah! Apart from that mistake of not wearing socks Bommie was comfy today. Very glad I bought her...

Overall, today has been quite a good day. I wish there will be more days like this, but I have to face reality; I have to re-start my job training, and I won't be free until (maybe) after December (apparently the month I finish my job training at Double Tree)... *sigh*

*goodbye for now. can't believe that tomorrow will be the 1st of June already. how time flies by...

The Secrets We Hide

We struggle to have meaning

In this world which we all know

We try but yet we wonder
Where we all should go.

Hidden in the questions
Which we can not find
The answers are all hidden
Deep inside our minds.

Hidden in our soul
Is the life we try to hide
But in time it will find you
And it will release.

All of its secrets hidden beneath
So before it ruins the life you have made
Release those dark secrets
And the memories will fade.

Hidden in our lives are stories left untold
Of the things we didn’t want them to know
But once you tell somebody
And make your feelings known
 The struggle will be over
And you’ll finally be home...

BOMMIE!!!

bought a new pair of sneakers today! i think i shall name her 'Bommie' (named after Park Bom of 2NE1). WELCOME TO THE FAMILY! hehe!

I went to Paradigm Mall with my cousins today. I had two reasons why I wanted to go there: 1) to watch 'Fast & Furious 6' and 2) to buy myself a new pair of sneakers. And safe to say I completed both tasks! The movie was fantastic. The opening credits scene brought back memories of the past movies, which was a nice tribute in its own way. The ending, however, will make you eagerly anticipate the next movie of the F&F franchise. No way am I going to spoil the movie for those who haven't watched it yet. Go watch it yourself, and you'll also be eager to get your hands on tickets for the next movie...

 As you can already see from the above photo, I got myself a new pair of Adidas NEO sneakers. Model name is Clemente, I think... Anyways, I plan to name her 'Bommie' (after Park Bom of 2NE1). I know it's weird, but I have given female names to the last few pair of shoes I've bought. Before Bommie, I bought a pair of bright green Nike sport shoes and named her 'Katy'. Before 'Katy', I bought a pair of Nike sneakers and named her 'Olivia'. I name them after female names I like in particular.

I was woken up this morning not by my alarm clock, but with a call from Cilantro Academy. Apparently, my application to another hotel has been approved. I will be starting my training on the 5th of June. The hotel? Double Tree by Hilton. Interview will be on the 31st of May, which will be this Friday. Gosh...so nerve-wracking! I got to make my way down to KL city for the interview, as on Friday my uncle and his family will be off to a 4-day-3-nights church camp. Luckily his house is located near the LRT station... Never gone to this hotel before, but I should be able to find my way there...


 *have had a great time with this 'break', but I guess the hard work will start next week...*

boring boring...

Hello.
Very boring day yesterday. Just stayed home and online-d.
Supposed to begin revising for theory exam coming up next month but I'm procrastinating.
King of Procrastination... Hmmm...
Got to begin as soon as possible.

Looks like today is not going to be any different...
Actually, I am looking forward to tomorrow night, when Eric will drive from JB to KL to pick me up for some outrageous unplanned road trip. Could be my last time enjoying a break before I resume hotel training at the beginning of June...
CAN'T WAIT!

*had this delicious burger for dinner yesterday. this is the 'Turkeynizer Cheezy' from Burger Kaw Kaw (formerly known as Burger Bakar). sure, it may be pricey (i ordered the single version, which cost me RM10.50), but it's worth every cent! it is huge, so it's filling. i would say these are 'gourmet' burgers, as compared to our local favourite, the Ramly burger. anyway i had it at their Kelana Jaya branch. this happened to be my second time visiting the stall, and also the second time eating the same burger! i should try the other choices there too, but i am not a big fan of beef burgers. i am more of a 'chicken' guy. maybe on my next trip there i will sample other burgers...

Good day

On Facebook there have been numerous posts on 520 {today's date: 20th May} being "I love you in Chinese". i personally don't quite get it. load of bulls**t!

This morning, I went to Cilantro to meet Chef Bernard to conduct a domestic inquiry. Yee kau-foo accompanied me there to help me pay the RM750 "hotel training re-take" fee. Was earlier than expected (Meeting time was 10:30 a.m., but we reached Cilantro at 10:10 a.m.) Better late than never, right? Got a rude shock when I saw *asshole* and his uncle & aunt chatting with Chef Bernard. Either way, the both of us still had to eventually meet Chef Bernard, so no difference who meets him first... When it came to my turn, I told him everything that happened that night. I won't beat about the bush; I was deemed "fully guilty" by Chef Bernard, and *asshole* was deemed "completely innocent" because I "supposedly got angry over a small matter and also over the fact that I knew he was the silent type yet I still made a big fuss out of it". Anyway, to end this nicely, Chef Bernard asked me to issue a letter to Mr. Patrick of Rasa Sayang Hotel saying I have taken full responsibility for everything that happened and that *asshole* wasn't to blame. Apparently once this letter is sent to Mr. Patrick it would mean that *asshole* will get re-instated into the hotel to resume his training. I agreed to do it, and so he shall be free to go back to Penang to work... For my situation, the college will give me a call somewhere later this month to confirm which hotel I'd be joining to re-do my job training. Waiting with bated breath...

Yeah...WHATEVER. I didn't expect Chef Bernard to say that *asshole* was "completely innocent". But I can't blame Chef Bernard; after evaluating both our stories he got his verdict almost spot-on (except for the "completely innocent" part). I just accepted the fact and apologized to *asshole* again because I want for this matter to come to a closure... Nothing to talk about anymore... Leave it at that...

After the meeting, I brought Yee kau-foo to Sunshine Blue cafe in Summit shopping centre for lunch. It has only been one and a half months since I last ate there, but it felt like it had been longer than that! Recommended the 'chicken fried rice' (MY ALL-TIME FAVOURITE THERE), and he enjoyed it. Went back to Taylor's University College to accompany Yee kau-foo for a few more hours of work. It was so boring! After he was done with work, we went to Starbucks for a break. It was my first time ordering something from Starbucks! I know, so suaku right? But rather embarrassingly it happens to be true...

...and tadaa, my first Starbucks meal! from left, Carrot Cake; from right, Mocha Cookie Crumble Frappucino. I must say...I really should visit Starbucks more often for their drinks and cakes. Sure, it may be pricey, but you are getting what you paid for. Quality stuff right there... Absolutely enjoyed it till the last crumb/last drop!

I would say today has been a good day.

DOUCHEBAG(s)

As I am typing this, I am in Kelana Jaya. To be more specific, I will be living with my uncle for the time being while I settle my disagreement with *asshole* in my college. While I am disappointed that Penang didn't work out, I am glad to be back in "familiar" territory. I guess I am trying my best to see the positives in everything...

By now I guess the whole college must have known about what happened in Penang. Apparently what happens there DOESN'T stay there. Nothing controversial ever stays between the parties responsible anymore; now in this day and age everyone loves a controversy or two. They need something to gossip about, talk about, point fingers at, bla bla... Well, not that I care about all that, because I openly admit I was wrong. So if I admit I am wrong, there's no need to be ashamed about anything. It is those who deny everything and maintain feign innocence who find themselves being embarrassed sooner or later... I don't have to mention names anymore. If you have read my blog posts recently you will get at who I am pointing at. But, no, controversy is not my thing.

See this? Yeah, you definitely will. Enlarge it if you must. The reason why I post this screenshot is to highlight the concern my friends have over this matter. Which also brings me to this: *asshole* is still denying any involvement in this whole episode.. See? I know that my anger is bad and I have to control it, but THIS attitude from *asshole* is exactly what made me angry that night. He still thinks he's innocent, that he "didn't do anything I just sit down there play my phone" (sic). It was precisely because of him PLAYING WITH HIS PHONE that I got irritated. Yes, I know that has been his "pattern" ("pattern" meaning that according to his own words, "I can play with my phone and listen to what you're saying".), but I was asking him something serious. *asshole* shouldn't have treated me with disrespect no matter what he has gone through. Anyway, whatever that has been said and done cannot be undone, so I understand where he is coming from. *asshole* is understandably upset over losing his job, that's why he is pouring out his feelings on Facebook. Hardly classy, but hey, it's advantage to him, so if he has gotten all the sympathies when playing his sympathy card, kudos to *asshole*.

I just want to enjoy my Sunday, then focus on the job at hand on Monday, which is to head down to Cilantro Culinary Academy to discuss with Chef Bernard about what is the next course of action to take. I am confident that despite my incident there Chef Bernard will pardon me and allow me to stay on in Cilantro to continue my diploma course and most importantly take both the C&G theory and practical examinations. I strongly believe that I will be treated better than *asshole* and his parents, who I believe "broke protocol" by going straight to see the hotel's training manager and demanding that I write a letter absolving *asshole* of all blame, and then with that letter *asshole* can be reinstated into the hotel. By right, Chef Bernard told my mom that they should not have done what they did. They should have called Chef Bernard or gone to see him personally...

 ...but I don't care about what happens to him anymore.

I don't care about what happens to the *asshole* or his parents, because I am only concerned for my own future. If he cannot just accept some blame for this incident and move on then I think he can go do whatever he wants. I tried to advise him to come back and see Chef Bernard with me, but he has since given me the silent treatment. So, whatever man. I don't care anymore. He wants to think that he's innocent, then I am sorry; I won't be entertaining this clown.

MUDDAFAKKING HECK. What a terrible thing for me to have to read on Facebook. I thought there won't be anymore of these "subliminal" statuses aimed at me anymore, but NOPE...here they are, all aimed at me without mentioning my name.

 

HOW CLASSY, *asshole no.2*...

In the line of fire

YOU'RE FIRED.


No, those words weren't uttered even once. But once I woke up, I saw Sam on the phone, and from his tone I knew somehow that our "holidays" were over. According to him Elaine from Cilantro called to say that we both have been fired. Not to say we both were stunned, as we already knew our fates were sealed once we were given a "one-week break" A.K.A suspension, but it took a while to sink in. I was officially fired. I have never been sacked from anything before. This was an unwanted first. But then again, there's always a first for everything right?

Immediately after receiving that call, Sam and I went straightaway to the hotel to find Mr. Patrick for more information. As soon as we reached there, we were given clearance forms. We were asked to fill up that form, then go clear our things from the locker room. Only then did it sink in. I dug my own grave. Not only that...to make things worse I dragged my friend into this too. Immediately regret came creeping in, but it was all too late. No point apologizing anymore. The day had finally come. It was all happening. After all the clearing had been done, Henry, Sam and I went to collect our salary from the pay master. I didn't know that my first month here counted. I assumed that beginning from May onwards there was pay. Anyway after all that depressing news some cash was making it a little better...

After all was settled, I then proceeded to make a trip downtown to Komtar to jalan-jalan a bit. Decided it was best I did some last sightseeing before I headed back to Subang tomorrow. Window-shopped for four hours. I bought myself an 2007-08 Liverpool adidas away kit for RM80 as a treat for myself after a rough two weeks. I plan to wear it back to Subang tomorrow. Came home at 5, then packed up my luggage. Had a little chat with Sam (clearly upset about what had transpired in the morning) and cleared the air over some matters. Late dinner at 9. Just ate at the nearest zhi char below my place. A simple fried rice and soya bean milk is enough to satisfy me. Now currently surfing the Internet at the nearby Internet cafe. It would be a while before I can blog again, so I better take the opportunity while I can...

*sigh* I will be heading back to Subang tomorrow. Will be crashing at my uncle's place in Kelana Jaya. While I am glad to be back in Subang I am fretting over my job training. I shouldn't be heading back to Subang so soon! What's done is done...no point talking about it over and over again... Y'know what? I am just going to enjoy the weekend, then it will be back to serious stuff on Monday. Going to see Chef Bernard to discuss what is best for me now. Looking forward to the meeting. Hope everything goes well... *fingers crossed*


 
 *Gonna enjoy my last night here. I am not going to let the negative happenings over the last two weeks ruin my last night here!*

Chelsea, Europa League 12/13 champions!

                                     CHELSEA, EUROPA LEAGUE 12/13 CHAMPIONS!
                                                      (SL Benfica 1-2 Chelsea FC)
                                                              Amsterdam Arena


Woke up late for the final. Alarm was set for 2:45 a.m. but I was so tired I slept through the alarm. Woke up at around 4:06 a.m. in time to watch the last few minutes of the match. Glad I woke up to watch history in the making. With this win Chelsea  become the fourth side to win all three of the European Champion Clubs' Cup, UEFA Cup/UEFA Europa League and UEFA Cup Winners' Cup, following in the footsteps of Juventus, AFC Ajax and FC Bayern Munich. Branislav Ivanovic's last-gasp header was undoubtedly special, seeing that the game was heading for extra time. The match wasn't really that exciting (I mean from when I started watching it) but somehow I had THAT feeling Chelsea were going to win this 2-1. If you had watched at the same time I did you would have called me crazy for predicting that scoreline! Both Benfica and Chelsea were attacking, but somehow the quality of Chelsea's players shone through. So good to see an English club winning European silverware. It doesn't matter whether it's a team I support or not, but of course I want my team Liverpool to have yearly success in Europe and domestically too. Looking forward to the weekend's round of Premier League matches. It will be the last round of matches for the season 12/13. Sad that football season is ending, but there's always next season. A long wait, but it is always worth it. Can't wait!

I am still suspended from work, but I think in a few days time the call from HR Department will come. I know that if I am re-instated I will be facing an uphill battle to regain trust from (almost) everyone in the hotel. I have to be serious already. Can't waste time fooling around. Got to work hard. I just have to be positive and have a smile on my face constantly. Got to be happy and enjoy whatever's ahead of me. I know it will be tough, but I am ready and determined to fight it. I CAN DO IT!

That's all for now. Got to go catch up on some sleep! Got to start my studying later. Bye!

*can't believe I am in an Internet cafe at this hour!*

Suspended confusion

"All farewells should be sudden, when forever"

Today's the second day that I have not returned to work. Currently still suspended. Mr. Patrick said he would either call me or Sam, but yet to get any call from either him or anyone from HR Department. Worrying.

Yesterday I got (kinda) good news from Henry. He claimed that Chef Lim can help Sam and I get "transferred" to Shangri-La's sister hotels. Also, the HR Department will NOT mention this incident to the next hotels we get transferred to. Cause for celebration yet? No. Why? Because we have to start all over again. The first month completed in Rasa Sayang Hotel won't count, so when Sam and I get into the next hotel we have to begin all over again. Sucks. But then again it's better than not having a job at all...right? Another downside is, Sam and I will be one month behind our batch in taking the C&G theory examination and practical examination. Maybe I need to consult Cilantro Academy for more advice before proceeding...
According to more info from Henry, I could get into Trader's Hotel in Muar, Johor while Sam could get into another (as yet unnamed) hotel back in his hometown of Perak. Out of all the bad things that have happened lately, I guess this is something positive. I am also happy that Rasa Sayang Hotel is willing to help Sam and I find other hotels to enable us to continue the job training. Usually once you are fired you are left on your own; so I guess they genuinely want to help...

No concrete plans on what to do yet. I am torn between calling Cilantro Academy first or calling my parents to inform them of what's going on now. I am planning to stall for time until I am certain that I can get into Trader's Hotel in Muar. Maybe then only will I tell them... Still wondering if that's a bad idea...keeping my parents and the college in the dark about this... Hmmm...

So, what have I been up to during these past few days I've been suspended? Nothing much. Went shopping at Gurney Plaza yesterday. Bought another Hot Wheels car (a Volkswagen Golf GTI) to add to my collection. Today I am planning to visit the Internet cafe for a few hours, then go home to think of what plans I got to make in these next few days. Gotta start soon.....

That's all for now folks. Will update blog if there's anything new.

Bad Day

I've had a pretty bad start to my off day. REALLY bad.

Yesterday I threw a glass of water on the floor. Not the "oh, it's just something being thrown out of anger", but more of "oh, it's something thrown out of anger ON the cafeteria floor of my hotel"... Yeah..I threw it due to my bad temper and stress. Threw it due to a minor argument with my friend Sam. Thought he was being rude but in fact he was just tired from working the late shift. Now I feel stupid to have misunderstood him. Silly to have done that. Now I look back and regret it. But what's done is done...can't go back to undo it anymore. What's worse is that immediately after the glass was thrown the security was called in to take photos of the incident. Looks like I was gonna be in trouble. BIG trouble for not being able to control my anger. Shit.

I had a fear that everyone in the hotel would find out about it immediately, and this morning I was proven right. EVERYONE in the hotel knew about this incident. That was to be expected anyway, knowing that it is human nature to gossip about anything and everything. Oh well... Anyway, when I woke up this morning I heard Sam talking to Henry about needing to go back to the hotel to meet Mr. Patrick (Training Manager of Rasa Sayang Resort) and explaining everything to him. Henry also told me that the head chefs weren't happy about all this and that there was a high chance of me being fired. FIRED. Now that's the worst-case scenario. I made the mistake, now I have to clean up the mess. Grudgingly, I did. I somehow knew that my off day was not going to be okay. Back to the topic. So I followed Sam to the hotel to meet Mr. Patrick, and surprisingly he was calm. Maybe it isn't him that I should be afraid of... Hmmmm... Anyway, Sam and I told our versions of what happened, and we were individually brought to Security to give a statement. I duly complied, and so did Sam. Surprisingly the man who took my statement was nice. He told me that this is just a small matter. According to him, once he has processed everything it will be sent to the HR Department to have a check. He claims I won't be fired because of such a small matter. After a LONG while, Mr. Patrick told us that we could leave. He said that he would get back to us after he has checked the reports. So far, so good...?

So here I am, blogging about this while I could still be fired. Hopefully this isn't considered so serious until I could lose my job. Hope. What I need now... If let's say I don't get fired and that tomorrow I can go back to work, I dread seeing everyone. I am afraid that people are gonna make fun of me or label me as "the guy who lost his temper and broke a glass"... I am gonna need a thick skin to make it through this few weeks (hopefully this incident will be forgotten as soon as possible).

What a shit last few hours it has been. What a shit day. What a shit situation I am in because of me, my own worst enemy.

May day

"All my life, is changing everyday, in every possible way."

You are the reason

Here's on the street
A tear in the seam
Of pleasure and pain
Life carries on
A cloak of deceit
Brings honour to shame
But the voice I used to know
Is the one I can't let go

You are the reason
My faith in tomorrow
A distant horizon
The one I must follow
You are the first, you are the last

I'll help you to see
The light in the dark
The sun through the rain
Until you are free
And facing the truth
That words can't explain
But the truth I think you know
I could never let you go

You are the future from the past
You are the spell that has been cast...

26.4.2013

This used to be my playground
This used to be my childhood dream
This used to be the place I ran to
Whenever I was in need
Of a friend
Why did it have to end
And why do they always say

Don't look back
Keep your head held high
Don't ask them why
Because life is short
And before you know
You're feeling old
And your heart is breaking
Don't hold on to the past
Well that's too much to ask

Live and learn
Well the years they flew
And we never knew
We were foolish then
We would never tire
And that little fire
Is still alive in me
It will never go away
Can't say goodbye to yesterday

No regrets
But I wish that you
Were here with me
Well then there's hope yet
I can see your face
In our secret place
You're not just a memory
Say goodbye to yesterday
Those are words I'll never say

This used to be our playground
This used to be our great escape
This used to be the place we ran to
This used to be our secret hiding place

This used to be our playground
This used to be our childhood dream
This used to be the place we ran to
The best things in life are always free
Wishing you were here with me

Wait for me...

I need to talk with you again
Why did you go away
All that time together
This feels like yesterday
I never thought I'd see
A single day without you
The things we take for granted
We can sometimes lose

And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again?
Will I see you again...

'Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through
If you wait for me
And all the tears I cry
No matter how I try
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me
In heaven...

Do you remember how it was
When we never seemed to care
Days went by so quickly
'Cause I thought you'd always be there
And it's hard to let you go
Though I know that I must try
I feel like I've been cheated
'Cause we never said goodbye

And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again?
Will I see you again...

Because I miss you so
And I need to know
Will you wait for me?

'Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through
If you wait for me (Say you'll wait for me)
And all the tears I cry (all the tears I cry)
No matter how I try (how I try)
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me

'Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through
If you wait for me...