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Why do I worry?

Why do I fret?

Why do I panic?

When the event has not even happened yet?

Perhaps I am nervous?

Perhaps I am scared?

Perhaps I am going to have something I have never before had?

Come what may I will be prepared

Come what may I will be ready

With God by my side

I know He will always be there to help me.

misunderstood. again

as i'm typing all this now i have just 'recovered' from a very unhealthy session of anger. had a talk with my bestest friend in school, Teacher Benny, and now i'm feeling much better. i thank God that He has brought T.Benny into my life to be my teacher, friend, and also a confidante.

what was i upset about? well, i'll just put it this way: i had been misunderstood. AGAIN. strangely enough, ever since i joined this school, i have been (more or less) misunderstood at some point in time. whether it was by the former students, or the current new ones, it never fails to get off my back. some people say they can't get "the monkey off their back" to describe a certain problem dogging them, but in my case it is more like "the monkey not being able to get the monkey off his back"! ha ha.

after talking with T. Benny, i realized that some people will never appreciate something good done by their friends for them until they realize it when it's all to late. i feel that way right now. i feel that, despite me trying to comfort, support, encourage, and motivate my fellow schoolmates in school, i just end up being misunderstood. so what to do, i ask? for me, i've found my answer: JUST BE MYSELF. i am who i am, and if you don't like it, then it's just TOO bad. as long as i know that i'm doing the right thing, the haters can backbite all they want, yet i won't succumb to criticisms and negative talk. BUT FRET NOT! i'll still be here for those who believe and have complete trust and faith in me. i'll continue to dish out advice and encourage. :)

there, i feel much better letting it all out. now, time for me to go get a bite to eat, 'coz i'm HUNGRY! gahh...! :P

trannie 3

watched Transformers 3: Dark Of The Moon today. it was typical Michael Bay fare: all the time loud explosions, boom-boom-bang, in-your-face type of action-packed movies. a bit long, but for this kinds of movies the arse numbing was worth it. i am not a big Transformers fan (be it the original cartoon series or the three-quel movie series), but i thoroughly enjoyed DOTM. storyline and plot may be weak (yes i am the critic. ha ha.) , but just don't think too much and sit back and enjoy the ride. maybe you could just watch it for the cars? hehe. for those of you who haven't gone to catch it yet, PLEASE be willing to part with some money to pay for the admission ticket and be prepared to have your eyes feast on all the gorgeous cars and robots (plus the 'new' eye candy, Rosie Huntington-Whitely a.k.a Carly). she's gorgeous too, but in my eyes not as gorgeous as Bumblebee. gosh...how i wished i had such a cool car that could also transform into a robot. one can only dream.....

quote of the day

today i won't be saying much. will just be posting this 'quote' by yours truly. i swear, it is an original 'quote'! :P

"The last chapter has passed; it has gone. Turn to the next one, and move on."

back to the future

i haven't been blogging for a while now. i came, i saw(read), and i know. it's been a boring few days of life for me, that's why i haven't been visiting my blog for updating. boooooooooooooring.......

now, back to the future. i am trying very hard to focus on my studies. will be trying to take the SAT test somewhere around September/October this year. but first i got to complete my Math and Language Arts to Grade 11. it's a big ask, but NO PAIN, NO GAIN.

sometimes i wonder.....what am i doing here on earth? i feel that, while i want to work hard and aim to get into a design college, i am at the same time lazing around. no, not doing absolutely NOTHING, but doodling endlessly wherever and whenever i am. not a good thing, but neither is it a bad thing either. i guess doodling is a talent given to people who are FULL of ideas and are creative. i think i am both! so...i take it that my talent of sketching and doodling are both a blessing and a curse? hmmm...

double whammy

woke up with a blocked nose (again.).
not surprising, as this has been the case for practically the last week or so.
sore throat is still here to stay, so i guess my life right now pretty much sucks.
spent almost the entire morning playing computer games.
played some Daytona, and i won my first race in Desert City! woohoo!
felt bored, so i went online to search for more game downloads, and bowling pleased me, therefore bowling was my choice.
am glad i chose that game, coz i just recorded the top score of 226! *double WOOHOO!*
haahahahahahaha.
yes, i am childish to play such games at my age. but who cares? i am sick, give me a break. let the patient enjoy his unfortunate stay at home. yes, please. hehe.
ahhh...but that does not make me a happy bunny. i am still.....lacking something. something MUCH deeper. i feel empty. ahh such pathetic stuff. forget it. pffft.

whoa no!

oh look, we are already in June. another month passes in the year of 2011. hooray. NOT.
so, how does June feel? nothing? well okay. thats because i wouldnt want to feel that i had wasted the first five months of 2011 away, so i rather be indifferent to June. my choice. pffft.
the beginning of June......sucked. why? because that was when i began falling sick, and as i am typing this, yours truly is STILL sick. on the last round of meds, yet still no recovery. maybe i need to go back to the dreaded doctor and get more dreaded medication. gahhhhh. nooooooooooooo.
it sucks to be sick. well not that i was gonna have much fun these holidays even if i were to be 100% fit, but at least it would be better to be fit than sick right?
the beginning of June has sucked....BIG time.