hard at work: thinking. A LOT.

as the title says, yes, i have been thinking. A. LOT. sigh. i don't know! i just find myself either daydreaming or just randomly thinking about stuffs. crappy, naughty, nice, sweet, bitter, sad, painful, etc etc... it is just that way. i have know idea why. i should think that i am normal, right?

one more random thing i learnt today: talking to yourself aka "listening / responding to your inner voice" is NORMAL. weird. i sometimes do that. yes yes, confession time. but, everyone's definitely done that at some point of their lives...right? i mean, who hasn't? there will always be times in our lives where we make mistakes that could have been avoided and end up talking to ourselves later. (all because of a certain "inner voice".) life is strange. funny, that.

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odd day. school just wasn't feeling like school. i played table tennis most of the whole day. strange...

today i was told by a very dear friend that yours truly and another guy from my school have very few friends. hmm... i know i have very few friends, but it was the pain inside me that hurt. the hurt from being told the cold reality. i know, what i am posting now sounds crappy, but i feel that this is like a step back from progressing. i have been told countless times that i should be strong and learn to face reality head-on. but truth is, i am weak. i don't have the courage to admit to such (lame) things. i mean, i could just ignore whatever she said about me, but i can't. maybe it's just because i'm sensitive. PERIOD.

gotta be un-affected by such remarks. power to the Munkiie! XD

what can i do?

at work now. what a fantastic way to begin my Saturday. zzzzzzz.

sometimes i wonder... why do things that can be resolved with just a simple small chat be dragged on so long that both parties can only look at each other, but not start a decent conversation? i mean, i thought that this predicament that i was in would have been resolved earlier. looks like i am the only one who cannot talk to you, but just stare at you from afar...

weather's been pretty crazy lately. it would be searing heat in the earlier part of the day, and then it would just start raining cats and dogs around the later part. if that's not crazy, then i have no idea what that is... the world must really be coming to an end...

being with you, it's just one epiphany after another

they say the secret of success is being at the right place at the right time. agree? but since you never know when the right TIME is going to be, i figure the trick is to find the right PLACE, and just hang around. with you, i can just be myself and not care about what other think of me. ahh...if only life was such an easy thing... one can only wonder and wish.....

one hole that i can't get out of

wooooooooooooh. such bad timing. unfortunate events just seem to like hanging around me. i just crashed my family car. AGAIN. and the thing is, this time, i have damaged it WORSE than before! gosh! what am i gonna do? how it happened was, i was turning into the house to park the car when my dog ran in front of the car to 'break free'. so i avoided the dog by turning towards the gate slightly, and KEEEEERRRRRACCCCCCK! the rear panel near the rear door gets scraped on the gate, resulting in a rather huge 'gash'. boy, are my parents gonna be hopping mad when they see the car! =(

i am a DEAD MAN WALKING. i repeat, I. AM. A. DEAD. MAN. WALKING. =( =( =(

happy

HAPPY =)

yep, that's how i have been feeling the past few days. must be strange, as i don't usually tell people whether i am happy, sad, etc etc. *yeah, you get the picture* why am i happy? happy because certain things have gone 'smoothly' (hopefully it will become like this all the time), and that maybe certain issues will have been cleared. i am not sure whether a certain someone has forgiven me (for whatever wrong i have committed), but i do hope that the matter will have been resolved by now.

right then. imma go get rest now. GOODNIGHT world =)

eating (fail)

even eating can be such a pain in the S for me. how sad.

see, just a few minutes ago i polished off almost half of a pound cake. now i feel kinda queasy. but i guess it is worth getting sick over this. i couldn't resist chocolate foodstuff! i guess they were right when they said "too much of a good thing is a bad thing". haha.

gotta work hard on completing LIFEPACs. report card day is coming soon! must try my very best to cram in as many books as possible! power to me!